College was nothing like I had expected it to be.
I came to the University of Oklahoma excited from my time at Camp Crimson and looking forward to stretching my limits, expanding my horizons, and meeting new people. I joined a sorority (something that surprised most of my friends and my boyfriend) and I loved it. I changed my major three times (technically two, but I plan on changing it once again after holiday break. The semester went by extremely quickly. It only feels as if it was yesterday that it was the summer after my senior year of high school. There were lots of things I wish I could go back and tell little anxious, fresh out of high school Sabrina. I would tell her to take it easy with the hard classes, and that it’s okay to not know what you’re doing. I spent a lot of this last semester with a lot of personal problems with leaving the life I had at home. I left myself with a lot of regret and disappointment. With these feelings, I set myself up for disaster, anxious about every single little thing.
After sorority recruitment, I really felt socially exhausted. It was hard for me to want to go out and meet new people, and then I got nervous about people already having friends from home, and people already making friends when I was just sitting in my room. I got anxious about all of that, and I think that it really affected the way I came off to people. It has been hard to adjust. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I had always thought that I would go to an Ivy League school. I knew it was a slightly unrealistic dream, but the regret and disappointment only increased as I sat in my room wondering if I really fit in at this school. I was scared that this wasn’t the right place for me. I still am sometimes, but I think a lot of us are unsure of why we are where we are whether that be a location or a class or a college or a place in our lives. I have found the opportunities at OU to be vast and limitless. There is so much to be involved in and there is so much to look forward to with each coming semester. I look forward to wearing the Crimson and Cream for the next 4 years, and call the University of Oklahoma my home. There are so many people that are willing to help you, and so many ways to become the person you want to be. In the last month of school, I have slowly fallen into the place that I think I want to be. I’m still working on myself, but I will continue to do that for the rest of my life.
College is definitely a learning experience both inside the classroom and out, and I am looking forward to getting the most that I can out of that experience. This semester has been a time of many firsts. My first honey butter chicken biscuit, my first braum’s, my first college classes, my first D on a test, my first Raising Cane’s, and my first time I wasn’t sure where I was going or what I was doing. The future was so unclear, but I am looking forward to finding where I am meant to be with the help of this university. After all, there is only one.